Everything that I’ve known has become fear and pain
Everything that is normal is becoming my chains
Thinking about tomorrow makes me feel ill again
Suffocate in my skin but that is what I get
Asphyxiate in my heart, but this is my pain
Regret and nostalgia makes me reconsider
Thinking bout tomorrow is making me bitter
It’s been so long I’m here It’s been like forever
Yeah it’s only been days why do I feel so old
I wanna go home but I don’t know what home is
I wanna go home but I forgot who home is
I can’t help but thinking I created this mess
One minute we’re happy next is fucking chaos
Not looking for pity I’m the one who’s sorry
I thought I’d fix it all I just spread the pieces
So now I barely sleep I’m just waiting at night
Bittersweet memories haunting me as I write
Yes there’s always an out it’s just that I’m concerned
Starting to realise there’s always a problem
Starting to comprehend that I am the problem
Starting to come to terms with how low I’ve fallen
Having time to reflect has allowed me to see
To understand I’ve been the monster all that time
I don’t wanna lose you don’t want to lose a thing
But then again maybe want to lose everything
Nothing at all makes sense, so why not kill the pain
Numbing who I’ve become and starting all again
Don’t know how long I can keep that mask on my face
Don’t know how long I can go on without a heart
I’m special I don’t care if all my life I hurt
Bullshit I told myself cause I didn’t have a place.
Hating to be normal and hating it again
Hating the normal for not feeling the pain
I’m trembling in the shadows knowing I was wrong
I’m shaking in my bed and I’ll never belong
Here
I’ll never belong here
credits
from sea,
released December 18, 2020
"All music and lyrics and some of the mixing by grabyourface
Mixing and mastering by Gom Pilote (Unspkble, Between the Zones, Londead, Animal)"
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